14/03/2026
Closing BB wasn't easy, but it was the right thing to do for the business and for the family. It was right for me too, but for me, it was a bit like losing an appendage. My whole identity was tied up in the shop, so it has been a process of figuring out who I am without it.
I've been doing my best to lean into curiousity and remember the things that brought me joy and excitement at BB. They weren't usually the things I had a lot of time for.
It started with some writing. I knew I would enjoy doing a newsletter but I just couldn't figure out what to write about and then randomly at one of Niki's events, it came to me - My Favourite Four. A lighthearted, curated email of my four favourite things of the week or month, or at this point quarter. I wrote three and even though I wrote a few more I struggled to hit publish. And it's a pity because I actually loved writing it. Creating wasn't the problem, fear of judgement was.
I also started to play more with AI. I'm not techy but I've always been curious &excited about innovation. So I started learning &reading about ai tools - generally without using them, just reading as much as possible & following people, who approached AI with the same caution, curiosity, and enthusiasm I had, rather than trying to use it as a get-rich-quick lever. With that in mind I started . The idea was to share about AI not as an expert, as a regular person, someone who is excited about it, but sometimes suspicious and cautious. AI for everyone. I just wanted to learn &share the experience. It's been a learning curve, but thanks to an online challenge I have managed to post consistently for the last 25 days. My visual content creating skills are a work in progress, but for now showing up trumped everything else. Plus I have had the best time playing with AI tools, LLMs, and my favourite - building no code apps on Lovable. I never thought about building apps, but I suddenly had an idea for an app to help Niki manage orders for .it.easy.london I cannot tell you the fun I had building it.
I can't pretend that the last year and a bit has been easy, but I'm trying to find the light in the tough moments.